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Of a Facebook friend and a Monster

This is a true story that happened to me a few weeks ago. If you don’t know, I was born in Venezuela: a country that praises sensuality and ornament. With a long tradition of international beauty pageant queens, it is in our culture, in our identity, to look good. Oddly enough, that custom has only boosted my desire for simplicity.   When I was 18, I weighted 54 kilograms, I used to pull my hair back in a ponytail, everyday. I was slim, had large hips, long neck and a small waist. I didn’t wear make-up or followed trends. My favourite colors to wear were black, blue, and gray. I wasn’t fashionable. I was, you could say, simple. But I felt special, not all eyes were worthy of my beauty (teenage self-esteem). Fourteen years have passed and I am a woman now. Do I even have to say that I don’t look the same? Should I even say it? To you? My dear friend reader who must sense me just a bit by now? Well, I have changed. I am 20 kilograms heavier now.  My hips look lar

One more ode to the self

I’m the only Me that I have How can I loathe Me? I’m my only vehicle My only land My first experience of life I’m my lonely Me My hated Me My darkest Me My house My soul My mind Nobody would give me another Me to be How couldn’t I love Me? My beaten Me My scared Me My mistaken Me My feeble Me My miserable Me I have never seen someone quite like Me As rare As all the things I am Why wouldn’t I like Me If I’m my only Me? I’m sorry you cannot see Me I’m not here to be seen I’m here to be As you’re there to be, too. I’m only my only Me I have The only one I could ever call Me And I cannot, By the strength of the fiercest spells, Lose my Me. © 2015 Grecia Albornoz